the weary world

Do you feel that ache? Do you burn with anger and sadness after watching the news this week? Do you wonder why everyone is fighting and hating? Do you wonder why senseless deaths don’t seem to get any sort of chance at justice?

“The Spirit of the Lord will rest on him”

I feel it. I feel weary when I see the hungry, the alone, the homeless, the murdered, the protesting. Our world is not right. How we are treating people is not right. When we ignore and make excuses. When people can’t get basic needs like water, food, a family. The world is not alright. It is weary.

“The Spirit of wisdom, understanding, counsel, power, knowledge, fear of the Lord”

I can’t find the words to bridge decades of racial strife. I can’t make a decision for the grand jury. I can’t tell 100% conclusively who is right and who is wrong.

“He will not judge by what he sees or what he hears; but with righteousness”

I can’t adopt a boy in Ghana who prays every night for a family and sees friend after friend leave with their forever families.

“With justice he will give decisions for the poor of the earth”

I alone can’t give food and clothing and houses and jobs to the entire homeless population of the world.

“With the breath of his lips he will slay the wicked”

We’re at the point where we can’t ignore the hurt anymore, and I can think of a million reasons why there looks to be no hope.

But I can think of one reason why there is Hope.

“And a little child will lead them.”

And if we follow, we can find Hope. We can be Hope. We will have the Spirit of the Lord, of wisdom, understanding, power, and knowledge. We can be the hands and feet of Justice and Righteousness. And if we can do that, if we can even just try, right where we are, giving what we have, the mourning mothers, the hungry toddlers, the tired professionals, the lonely children, the angry protesters, the weary world….we will rejoice.

Isaiah 11:1-6

November Playlist

November Playlist

Working from home, the best motivation for me is a good playlist. Warning: this playlist doesn’t really have any rhyme or reason besides being great music. Here’s what I’m listening to this month:

November Playlist

Next to You by Tyler Hilton

Fellow OTH fans, Chris Keller’s got some skills. “What age am I turning to finally be knowing I know nothing to be true?”

Love Will Be Enough for Us by Dave Barnes

I love love love this song. It makes me miss the KY/TN area and want to run away. And also have kids, so I should probably stop listening. “You and me, baby, and the daffodils/Kids growing up in the rolling hills/And love will be enough for us”

Twenty-somethings by Judah & the Lion

Aw, millennial angst. Gotta love it. “Where in the world are we going with all our dreams?”

Made Alive by Citizens

I love this song. We’ve been singing it during Sunday morning at church, and the lyrics are just so solid. I get fired up every time it plays. “You have bought me back with the riches of your amazing grace and relentless love”

Taylor Swift’s Cover of Riptide by Vance Joy

I didn’t include all of 1989 on this list, which I have listening the heck out of, but I also love this cover of Riptide maybe even more than I love the original. Such an odd song, but I just keep listening.

Twenty-Three Places 10 Year Anniversary Commentary with Matt Wertz, Dave Barnes, Ed Cash

I don’t know why I started listening to this commentary, but it is hilarious and super cool insight into the song writing and producing process, which is always really interesting to me. I spent a whole afternoon working and listening to the commentary in the background, and laughed out loud more than once.

What songs can you not get enough of this month?

Freedom to Fly

This month, Show Hope is asking, What does it mean to be adopted by God? As I asked myself this question, I kept thinking about the things my parents are to me–a support, encouragement, protectors. I have been able to dream big because I know I have a safe place to fail. I think about the kids around the world who don’t have a safety net–they’re just trying to get through today on their own.

I am really blessed to have a daddy who has always believed in me. My dad has always pushed me and encouraged me. He has been a champion of women in ministry, fiercely protective of my calling to serve the Lord (When Chris asked my dad for his blessing to marry me, my dad’s first question was, “Are you going to be okay with Anna being in ministry?” That’s commitment). I think my dad always knew I was called to ministry, but he never, not once, pushed me that direction. My dad always told me, “You can be anything you want to be. You are so smart and talented. You can be anything.” I went to journalism camp, I took education classes, I had voice lessons. He let me explore other avenues, and was proud in each one. But I think he always knew I would end up serving vocationally in ministry, but quietly waited for God to call my heart loud enough where I couldn’t say no.

In high school, I made a series of dumb decisions that led me to a situation where I was over my head. My parents quietly warned me from the first warning sign, but they let me make the mistake. When I think back on that time, a time they saw very clearly when my vision was blurred, I can still feel the grace they showed me. When I realized I had been wrong, they held me as I cried and tried to put things back together. They never once said, “I knew it.” The embodiment of grace.

Having parents for me has meant having not only a safety net, but a diving board. I have a safe place where I can jump and spread my wings. I can try things, and I can fail. My heavenly father is the same way. He sometimes waits quietly in the background, waiting patiently for us to accept our calling. He is there when we fall apart to put us back together. He isn’t a father who says, “I TOLD you NOT to do THAT.” I’ve found the times in my life I felt I couldn’t get on my feet were the times I forgot God isn’t only a powerful, awe-inspiring being worthy of worship, but He is also the perfect Father, full of grace, never condescending.

Being adopted into God’s family means we have the freedom to try something and completely bomb. We have forgiveness when we go our own way. We have the chance to fly because we aren’t so scared of making a decision that we stay on the ground, clipping our own wings. We have the Father of Grace, who only gives good things, even when we’ve really messed up. We have grace, and abundantly, because that is our Father’s favorite gift to give.

Show Hope is an organization that cares for orphans around the world, bringing awareness to the specific issues orphans face and encouraging families to adopt by supplying grants. This month, they’re asking, What Does it Mean to be Adopted by God? Most orphans don’t have the same safety net that I did, and thus they aren’t free to try and fail…they are just trying to get the things they need to make it! Show Hope’s sponsorships allow for children’s needs to be met so they can dream big! Check them out here for more information.


So recently Chris and I did something crazy.

Like, pack up a UHaul and move halfway across the country crazy.

The last few weeks have been full of boxes, paint, and stress, but we are getting settled into our new little home (apartment) pretty nicely. We are loving our little area of the Dallas/Fort Worth area, but getting used to the HUGE lifestyle change.

The Good–

Dog parks, a million and one restaurants, getting to see my parents and brother, a new super awesome little apartment, finding a church

The Crazy–

Traffic, ALL the options, being away from Chris’ family and my sister

Overall, we are so excited about all that is going on right now. God is so good. There are about a million things I want to say, but those are other posts for other days. We are so thankful for you, family and friends! Stay posted as I write about our new job and new city adventures :)


5 Ways the Social Justice Movement Will Change the Church

The Millennial Generation’s heartbeat is that of justice. Our generation craves action and  hates injustice. We want the captives freed, the orphans adopted, the hurting healed, the lonely loved. 

This is evident in both the secular and church world, but I truly believe that this movement is huge factor in the next church culture shift.


1. Giving will increase, while tithing will decrease. Overall, Millennials are a giving bunch—of their time, money, and voices (83% of Millennials gave to charity in 2013).  MIllennials will give money—but not only to the church. Tithes will most likely be split with child sponsorship organizations, mission trip donations, feeding programs, etc… The reason for this is two-fold: 1) The passion to see change in the world and 2) Distrusting the church to use the money for those in need.

2. The scope of what jobs are considered “ministry positions” will expand. Baby Boomers worked for money, while Millennials will work to be fulfilled.  When committing to ministry, MIllennials won’t just be committing to a church job. The field has expanded to include parachurch organizations, nonprofits, and mission organizations.

3.  Church attendance will continue to decrease unless churches uphold action as much as they uphold small groups and Sunday worship services. Millennials are done with talk and teaching (partly because they think they already know it all)—they are seeking people who walk the talk.  If the church isn’t meeting the needs of the local community and loving those who have traditionally been rejected, Millennials won’t have any part of it. The most talented speakers and musicians won’t capture us for long if there aren’t actions focused on meeting physical needs locally and around the world.

4. Church membership looks different to them. Part of social justice is including everyone, especially the least of these. I am sure more churches will grapple with controversial questions, including homosexual Christians in church membership, and many MIllennials would be in favor. According to Thom Rainer’s survey of this generation, “Millennials will exit quickly from churches whose members are shrill and unloving toward those with non-biblical views on sexuality.” To some Millennials, love would mean acceptance and that, in turn, would mean membership. It is just a matter of time before churches deal with this question and more in terms of membership.

5. Diversity will be a measure of church health. Ethnically, socioeconomically, relationally—diversity is seen as evidence of an active church body that is actively working in the community.  Millennials will judge a church on who it attacts. Are there many races? Family structures? Are people from “both sides of town” there? Is Jesus depicted as a white, suit-wearing Republican? These are all questions Millennials will ask as they look at churches.

When Marriage is like Muscles



Someone once told me when you exercise your muscles tear a little bit. How you proceed then decides if your muscles rebuild stronger or if they get worse.  I’ll be honest, I have no idea if this is 100% true, but it does make sense to me! (And for the purposes of this thought, just stick with me, deal?)

Well, I’m no exercise expert, but I’m starting to think marriage is a whole lot like exercise. This week, Chris and I had a kind of fight heated discussion about something, and said a few things that weren’t very kind. Okay, let’s be honest, we came with words flying.

I walked away, stubborn and not wanting to apologize, and then God stuck that stupid thought about the muscles in my head. He likes doing that, right? Humbling us and showing us what is right when we just want to stomp around like babies. And I thought…Hmmm. Marriage is a lot like that.

When something mean is said that cuts Chris, it’s easy for me to just think, “Well, he’ll get over it. We’re married, so we’re stuck together no matter what.” But I bet that attitude is pretty dangerous. When we have a fight, our bond is torn a little. Just like Mr. Weightlifter told me muscles are torn.

Now, I have a choice:

1, Hang on to my pride and just assume it’ll all be okay, or

2. Look at what I did wrong. Apologize. Try not to do it any more. Be humble. Admit I was wrong.

I can choose the first, hanging on to my anger, and maybe it will work out or maybe the bond will be severed so badly that one day, all this little things add up and we can’t stand each other. Just like a runner who keeps running on a torn ligament, who instead of resting and growing stronger just keeps making it worse.  Or I can choose the latter, and swallow that dang pride God doesn’t seem too fond of, and our bond can grow stronger as God sanctifies us.

The second choice is so obviously the better one. All it takes is letting go of that pride, but man, isn’t is so hard when you’re mad? When you just wanna be mad for a little while longer?

But, shew, when I look at the marriages I want to emulate, they sure as heck aren’t the people who are simply stuck with one another, but the ones who seem like every day they grow closer. The real picture of marriage (and redemption), friends, isn’t clinging to pride, but letting our fleeting emotions go in exchange for a love that really lasts. Now that’s a marriage where Christ is glorified, and isn’t that the ultimate goal? I sure hope so!

God, may we just Let. It. Go. and grow stronger instead of weaker. Help us choose Your way, the hard way, the life-giving one. Amen.

Goals for Ghana

Well, I’m SO excited to be headed back to Ghana in less than 1 month! I cannot wait to go back and soak up as much as I can in two weeks. Here are my goals for the trip!

30 days


  • Love who God puts in front of me—without fear of illness, assumptions, anything holding me back.
  • Soak up as much wisdom as I can from the staff at CORM and GMI. Last time we visited CORM, I was so amazed by their vision and how clearly they communicated it to everyone! It is clear God is directing their paths, and they are great at sharing that! I’d love to learn more about how to do this. I’d also love to learn more about how adoption works from John and others at GMI!
  • Keep a Kingdom focus. It’s so easy to get caught up in one thing that I could miss out on other opportunities to serve, or I could try and serve someone in a way that isn’t very helpful.

On World Vision


One time, when I was in middle school, I had one of those morbid assignments to write my own obituary (why, English teachers, why???). My middle school self wrote about me becoming a woman with a loving husband, two kids, a glamorous job as a magazine editor (ha) and when I died I donated all of my money to the Christopher Reeve foundation because at the time I was obsessed with Smallville and Superman (hahahaha).

Anyways, my teacher read over it and very nicely told me the Christopher Reeve Foundation did stem cell research, and I nodded, proud of my future humanitarian self.  Then my teacher told me stem cell research uses aborted babies to do their research. Oh…

Lesson learned—research charities before I jump on board just because a celebrity endorsed it.

Well, friends, It’s the statement heard ‘round the internet, issued by World Vision, a child-sponsorship nonprofit:

The organization previously required its some 1,100 employees at the American branch to abide by a policy that required fidelity within marriage and abstinence outside of marriage, and only recognized heterosexual marriages. However, now World Vision is allowing gay Christians in legal same-sex marriages to be hired as well as gay Christians who follow their policy of abstinence outside of marriage.

World Vision’s senior director for media contacts, Cynthia Colin, shared a letter from Stearns to World Vision employees with The Huffington Post. Stearns explained, “I want to be clear that we have not endorsed same-sex marriage, but we have chosen to defer to the authority of local churches on this issue. We have chosen not to exclude someone from employment at World Vision U.S. on this issue alone.” (Huffington Post)



The firestorm that happens after debates like this in the Christian world sometimes kills me. Personal attacks are made. People tweet faster than they can think. Feelings are hurt.

Some bloggers and figures I deeply respect have staked their claims on sides of the issue. Some are burning the books, calling for a boycott, demanding Christians cancel all sponsorships and support.

Others say people shouldn’t care because WV is loving all and the kids would be hurt if you pulled out.

It’s hard because I agree with part of this latter statement (I’ll talk about the former in a bit). The kids and families are the ones who are hurt. I hate seeing people so blasé about cancelling their sponsorships. Boycotting World Vision means kids are not getting help they need. Not saying that is the wrong position to take, but let’s not oversimplify things by putting them in the strictly “right” and “wrong” categories: pulling out means the community isn’t getting that money. Let’s not take our first knee jerk reaction (which may be right or wrong) and pray. I don’t know what God will tell you about it—that’s between Him and you.  Please, friends. Do what you think is right, but for goodness sakes, please don’t forget you aren’t sticking it to WV, you are hurting the communities they help.


And it’s a huge but.

I would NEVER want anyone to consider giving to a charity without first looking at what they are giving money to. What are they teaching the kids in their program? How much of your money is going to overhead costs vs. to those in need? Is the charity saving or empowering? Are they in debt? Do they have a board in place? Where is the accountability? (Check out Charity Navigator for a great resource for this!)

You have the right to know. In fact, I’d say it is your responsibility to find out. If you are merely throwing money at a good cause to make yourself feel better without researching the organization and the work they do, well, that’s not helping people in need, it’s helping yourself.

But when you look at the charities you want to sponsor, you do have the right to pick one that aligns with your beliefs. One that spreads the message of Jesus if you so choose. You have the right to cancel a sponsorship or donation when an organization does a 180 or does something you think is harmful to the work you supported.

In the same breath, Christians, we have the responsibility to do it with love and understanding. In our speech, in our actions, in our typing on social media. Knowing the world’s eyes are on us. Knowing there are believers who struggle with sins of all kinds. Knowing Christ has loved us all at our very worst. And He has and can and will save those jwho repent and believe.

I sponsor with Compassion, and I personally want to know if they are sharing the Gospel with the children in their program. I want to know how much money is going to the community and how much is going to the president.  I do want to know their stance on gay marriage, because that effects what they teach the kids. I can’t tell you what I would do if Compassion followed suit. I love the kids Chris and I sponsor, and I truly believe in the work Compassion is doing, but I also want to know the kids were being taught what I believe the Bible says.

So, basically, I have no answer. Just ALL THE FEELINGS. What are your (respectful and loving) thoughts?

Update: World Vision has reversed its decision following advice from sponsors and leaders and a reported loss of 2,000 sponsored children.

I’m Forgetting Something…


This Easter, I’m forgetting something.

I’m gonna forget the drive to the mall, the searching through stores. I’m gonna forget about the $30+ I could spend on a new dress.  I’m going to forget about the pressure to look perfect in order to celebrate Jesus.


But I’m going to remember her:


And him:


I’m going to remember this group:

Ghana 294

And them:

Togo 052

I’m going to remember Isaiah 1 and Isaiah 58. I’m going to remember Matthew 25 and James 1:27.

Nothing’s wrong with dressing up. There is respect and good intentions and love in that. But this year, I am trading it in to feed an orphan!

Forget the Frock, started by Emily, whose husband used to pastor in our town, is about leaving behind the dress and instead buying a shirt from Feeding the Orphans (or another organization that provides food and water and empowers people!). Feeding the Orphans is awesome because all their sales go towards those in need—overhead costs are fundraised separately (and needed! You can donate to those costs here!).

What about you, friends? Do you want to leave the frilly dress and studly suit behind? Love an orphaned child this Easter…what better way to show respect and love towards Christ who loves orphans so deeply? Forget the Frock!

Friday Finds: One Day Late Edition

Okay, friends, this weekend has already been super busy! Yesterday and this morning I attended Imagine Children’s Ministry Conference, hosted by the KBC, and it was fantastic! I learned so much, and the Lord reminded me that programs and details are great, but the main thing is the main thing that that’s showing kids Jesus!

A few quick things I’m loving!

1. Nourish by Special K


I hate oatmeal, but this stuff is delicious. I love a big, hearty breakfast, so I really didn’t think this little cup would keep me full, but it has several days when I ate breakfast at 8:30 and didn’t have lunch until after 1. I’d highly recommend it to other oatmeal-skeptics!

2.  New pictures of one of our Compassion Kids


I love Compassion and the work they do that works beyond charity and into empowerment.  We got new pictures of Sonia, who lives in Togo. We’ve been sponsoring her for almost two years, and it is so cool to read her letters (we get several from her, less from Richard in Ghana). I was like a kid on Christmas morning ripping the letter open to see the new pictures!

3.  Venus Embrace Sensitive Skin Razor


Yay for crooked pictures!

The first time I ever shaved, I cut a four inch long gash down my shin bone. This set up the past ten years of hating shaving.  I have the most sensitive skin in the world, so when Influenster contacted me to review this product, I wasn’t so sure it would actually work. Wrong! It was so smooth to shave, and I didn’t have to press hard to get a close shave. I usually get underarm bumps, but with this razor I didn’t! If you have sensitive skin, I would definitely check this out! Bonus, it even comes with a stand that suction cups to your shower wall, which I love because I don’t have to worry about it sitting in water and rusting.

*I received this product free in in exchange for my honest review!

5.  The Branch Podcast


This is my parent’s church in Texas. On a walk today, I listened to Game Changer-What He’s Meant for Love, and it was just awesome. I highly recommend Chris Seidman. The sermons are great and happen to be the perfect length for a 30 minute walk. Plus it makes me feel closer to my parents, which I love!